Monday, April 26, 2010

April's SONG.. ♥

Never should've let you go
Never found myself at home
Ever since that day that you walked
Right out the door

You were like my beating heart
That I, I can't control
Even though weve grown apart
My brain cant seem to let you go

Thinking back to the old times
When you kept me up late at night
We use to mess around
Laugh and play, fuss and fight

I guess its too late, Im dancing this dance alone
This chapters done, the story goes on

Can't believe that you are not with me
'Cause you should be my lady
All I want is to set your heart free

But if you believe that you belong with him
Promise me, you wont let anyone hurt you
Remember, I will always be here for you
Even if it kills me to see you

In that wedding dress
Oh see you in that wedding dress
See you in that wedding dress
Oh see you in that wedding dress

(Verse 2)
Snappin out this misery
Depression this aint me
But I always turn around
180 degrees

You got control of me
And I, I cant explain
Somebody call 911 Emergency
Before I go insane

Since youve moved on
You took a piece of me give it back
So much pain in my chest
Blacking out, heart attack



And I see you with your man and it's hard to understand
If we belong, if I did you wrong, where we even began
We would always fuss and fight and it seems nothing was right
But I loved you girl and you were my world but you'd never trust this guy
'Cause the things I do when I'm on the stage, they say I'm a superstar
You couldn't understand all the female fans and then we grew apart
And I just don't get when you're acting like some other person
But I try my best to hold on at the times when it ain't working
And everytime that you say it's over it breaks my heart and I don't know why
'Cause you've done it a lot of times in the past but I get back up and try
You said we could work it out, how could you hurt me now
And you moved on to the next, I'm left with an imperfect smile


Sunday, April 25, 2010


After 3 days u kept on asking me to update my blog^.^

Thank you Baby..♥♥
I didnt mean every words that i said..=(
I Love You Soo much..SHAHIRA..♥♥
i will ALWAYS be with YOU..

Sunday, April 18, 2010

31 ways to make Shahira ♥'s me..hee..=)

  1. Tell her she is beautiful
  2. Hold her hand at any moment … even if its ust for a second.
  3. Hug her from behind
  4. Leave her voice messages to wake up to.
  5. Wrestle with her :)
  6. Don’t go hang out with you ex when she is not with you, you might not relize how badly it hurts her.
  7. If youre talking to another girl, when you’re done talking, walk over and hug her and kiss her….let her know she’s yours and they aren’t.
  8. Write her notes or call her just to say “hi”
  9. Introduce her to your friends … as your girlfriend.
  10. Play with her hair.
  11. Pick her up (she loves it)
  12. Get upset if another guy touches her and she doesn’t like it
  13. Make her laugh
  14. Let her fall asleep in your arms.
  15. If she’s mad at you, kiss her.
  16. If you care about her, then TELL HER
  17. Every guy should give their girl 3 things: a stuffed animal (she’ll hug it every time she goes to sleep), jewelry (she’ll treasure it forever), and one of her t-shirts (she’ll most likely wear it to bed) or sweatshirts sprayed with her cologne!! and flowers or something occasionally.
  18. Treat her the same around your friends as you do when you’re alone.
  19. Look her in the eyes and smile.
  20. Hang out with her on weekends
  21. Kiss her in the rain (girls love this)
  22. Kiss her just for the heck of it
  23. If your listening to music, let her listen too.
  24. Remember her birthday and get her something, even if its’n simple and inexpensive, it came from YOU. it means all the world to HER.
  25. When she gives you a present on your birthday, Christmas, or just whenever, take it and tell her you love it, even if you don’t (it’ll make her happy.)
  26. Always call her when you say you will, it may not seem like it, but it does hurt her and makes her think you don’t care so call even if you can only talk for a minute. Girls don’t necessarily have to have hour long conversations every night but its nice for us to hear your voice even for a quick hello.
  27. Give her wat she wants
  28. Recognize the small things … they usually mean the most.
  29. Don’t hug her friends or your friends that are girls cause she’ll feel left out.
  30. Hang out with her whenever you are free and u should be free to hang wit your girl friend all the time
  31. If u care about her…SHOW her!
I Shahira..

Saturday, April 10, 2010

11/4/2010..7.40 p.m...i cant sleep..

because ive been thkg of u..owh dear Shahira..bile la dpt jmpe nie..hari2 skype..but rase nak masuk je dlm screen tu..aku nie brangan kuat..heheh..problem da la byk nie..adui, im glad u always der..n u always did..I love u Dear..few days nie ade je mimpi die,hmm rindu sgt la nie..eee..geramnye..(yawning) haaa ngantok da..heee..^.^

good nyte eh2 morning Shahira..

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

7th of April 2010..11:16 p.m..

2!! bt it doesnt fell like 2 months..dts y ive been wondering, "It has been only for 2 months"..shit,bt d feelings towards her feels like we've been together more than dt..i wish dz feeling could stay long as it can..=) lets pray for dt....................................................Amin.............





Sian die..=(
i u

Monday, April 5, 2010

5/4/2010...12.00 a.m

Guilt,Giving up,Disappointed...these 3 words cant stop flying around in my head.. why..?? why..?? why now..?? did i do somethg wrong,until ive been punished like dz..wt am i suppose to do..i did evrythg i cn,i did everythg i hve to..should i jz live in the world of my own..?? i jz cant,cz i need sum1 to pushed me,to say u cn do dz,dun giv up,i luv u,im proud of u..evrythg..!!! y cant i succeed like my life..make my family proud,every1 proud..

it has been only 2 months....n look how happy i am wif HER..even sumtimes i cant do my best towards love towards u remains d neva jz soo sorry wt ive done..wt ive put u such an asshole..i always did..even i realise tryg my best,to be the best for u..u know how much i love you..even after wt u did to me..even evry1 keep tellg me how stupid i am,jz acceptng d way u are,n jz go on wif d relationship after im being cheated on u..dt doesnt matter,as long as im happy wif u..seriously i am..

im so sorry baby,i need sometime to put all this shit dt has been hppning to me back together again..i might be coming back this hari not sure bout dt..i noe i did promise u,ill be comg home..but n all promises are ment to be followed ok..i hope u understand..even im thousand miles away from u..believe always by ur side..i did meet u up last year ryte..i still remember d smell of ur skin..until these days..='( i still remember d way u move..i remember you..

plz 4give me i jz cant stop lovg u anymore,plz 4give if i need u like i do,plz believe me evry word i say is true..So If you're feelin' lonely.. don' im ryte here.. You're the only one i'd ever want..I only wanna make it good..i always love u,i mean it when i say I LOVE YOU..



how do i get thru one nite witout u..if i had to live without u,wt kind of life would dt be..?? i need u in my arms,need u to hold..u r my world,my heart, n my soul..if u eva leave baby u would take away evrythg good in my life..n tell me now how do i live without you..?? n i want to noe how do i breathe without you..?? if u eva go,how will i ever,ever survive..HOW??

without u,thered be no sun in the sky,der would be no love in my life,there'd be no world left for i dun noe what would i be lost,if i lost you.................

Friday, April 2, 2010

1st of April 2010..

wt i really hope happen on dz date is jz an April its not..its really we fix a broken glass to its normal shape..?? maybe we cn,bt its really takes time..even if we fix it..some part of d glass will be missing..same goes to our heart..once we love any guys/gurls,n den they cheat on us,lie to us..our heart broke into pieces...a broken heart can be fixed,it takes times,n even if we fix it,some pieces will be missing..dt is, TRUST..its always like dt..but they deserve second chance..for me dz is call karma,i did sumthg wrong before,n i admit i deserve dz,bt nt from sum1 dt i put my full trust on is nt my first time,bt dz is my second time,n i really think i dun deserve it on d second time..

nt even 2 months weve been together,even i noe dt u luv me within dz time,to me,u r jz playing with it..u didnt appreciate it.....honestly,until today,the guilt dt i felt towards both of u,still der..even u choose me..if i didnt love u like wt i told u..i could've leave u..i have a blog all bout u,wt should i do wif it,i hve 3000++ of ur snapshots pics,wt should i do wif it..but i do LOVE u..i have d rights to give u a better life..i noe i cn do i need to put trust in our ive lost it..i dun even trust myself anymore,dt i cn put trust on u..what should i do now..??? ive been cryg my eyes off after wt happening on dz date..ive neva done dt..even evrytime i broke up wif sum1..d phrase "bunga bukan sekuntum,kumbang bukan seekor" its really true, bt to me u r d only flowers...

You can always put on a fake smile but most people can read through that with the look in your eyes. Mouths can hide sadness, but eyes can not...Some people are better at hiding sadness, but people who know you will know...especially ur family..yesterday i did wc wif my mum..after sometime dz it wt happen..

mummy:is der sumthg bothering you?
me:nope..wt make u say dt..??
mummy:dun lie to me..
me:seriously mum,nothg..=)
mummy:i dun noe whether u realise o not but u r hiding sumthg within dt smileys..=)
me:mmm hehe nothg serious..=(
mummy:it does look serious? u can tell me..u always did..

i didnt tell her d real story,bt i make up another story..bla..bla..bla..n she gave me an advice...bla..bla..bla..den everythgs done suddenly my eyes pouring wif tears..again..i still cant accept wts been happening to me after all dz years..y always d bad thgs happen to me..?? y i cant live wif normal life like others..='( every morning i woke up,ill keep on sayg I LOVE YOU SHAHIRA,I LOVE YOU SHAHIRA,I LOVE YOU SHAHIRA...

long distance relationship is nt anythg cn happen,especially whn we dun trust each other..='( if only if u didnt lie to me bout ur relationship,dz thg wont happen,dz date wont be remembered,the pieces wont be missing n maybe i dun even knew u anymore..but everythgs happen 4 a reason..ill try to find d missing dt we will complete..ive put faith on never fade,it will always stay like dt..n i will love u always..