2 x 3 = 6

THE END

12th May 2010..♥

12 may,12 jam..mmg kna..nk kua 31 may la..31 jam..bole x baby..?? ahaha..
7.45 pg set jam,pukol 7 da bngun,semangat laen macam..hadoi..mlayan jap termenung,berangan..
phne bunyik(mesej) terkejut gak laa..sbb die bngun x payah dikejut..wow,semangat btol die nie..
sblum nie die da sound "x nk lmbat seminit pn." tp saye tggu lima belas minit kt lua,xpee kot kn awk.. :-*

lpas da breakfast kt umah saye,haha..nmpk muke die segan..bkn skali kna cmnie..da 2 kali daa..dulu lgla..sume bde 1st tyme..mase 2 xde pape plak tuu..ksian die..kali nie mcm ok ckit la..sbb da pnah jmpe kn..tp diam jee..xpe saye paham..

lpas g butik,ukur baju sume2,antala my mum g ofis..mami tutp je pintu keta,die start la..pott peett pott pett..cubit..(nnti saye amik pembaris gariskn semua bengkak2 yg kna cubit 2 oke baby,den tgk mmg bersmbung2..)..pott pett pott pett..main rambut..pott pett pott pett..gelak..pott pett..mrajukk..biaela 2 kn..mrajuk mnje..alololo..kurang kasih sayang yee..hiihih..♥

on d way g OU..rase mcm tourist plak..bole lpe jalan..haha..d best part is,i call my mum taye mcm mne nk g penchala link..ahhahah..padahal sng jee..lalu jln kuching..lpas ckp3..ltak..bole plak lpe mcm mne nk g jln kuching..hahahah..gila bab1..mcm mne nk jd pilot nih..pikir3..ok igt..

smpai OU,parking..den..jeng jeng jeeeeennnggg.....xde pape...♥ =) pastu carik kdai mkn..pusing3..sbb ksian baby x mkn dr pg kn..tau la lapa,nk cover2..den,g tgv,mcm xde org punn..x happning laa..g gsc laa..ok la ckit..xde la rase mcm nk g tgk wayang kulit..hehe..ajak g gold class..die X NAKK..msti korg x pecaye kn..die DECLINE..ish org da ckp da..bkn ari2 g gold class..xnk gak..ish3..xpe2..ade la pluang nnti..♥

lpas muvie kuar cinema lalu parkson..mcm best plak brg kt cnie..mmg fav mami la kn..bli la die satu..bkn mahal punn..lg pun bkn slalu..xpee..=) pastu bole plak die taye harge..ish bkn hadiah la kalo cmtu..shhh..x bole bttau..selepas beli,nk balikk..masok tiket parkg..wah singgit jee..murah betoll..haha..baby ckp OU mmg singgit..pikir bagus gak kn..AUSTRALIA 6 jam mcm td..da 60 hengget daa..cool kn..=)

g amik mami..masuk jee mami..mcm org bisu..ckp pn bisikkk jeee..ahahah..baby baby..apelaa..mami x mkn org laa..kalau die knyang laa..heheh..joke2..lpas anta mami umah..die tggu mami tutup pintu..hahahah..itu klaka..tutup je..pott pett pott pett..mcm biaselaa..♥♥
den anta la die umah..igtkn nk bawak mkn..tp mama masak lauk byk kn..xpelaa..g tman mama mkn..pkee..=) I ♥ YOU SHAHIRA

P/S: thanx 4 dt patung okee..love it..bear2 bebear ade la kwn nnti..n serunding sedap...nyum2..!!
lpas nie kite wt lg eh..cube x balikk plak...ahahah..mmg mngamok la mama..

rase nk menjerit..laaaa..sbb seronott..=)

9th May 2010..Happy Mothers Day..=)

You taught me everything
And everything you've given me
I always keep it inside
You're the driving force in my life, yeah
There isn't anything
Or anyone that I can be
And it just wouldn't feel right
If I didn't have you by my side
You were there for me to love and care for me
When skies were grey
Whenever I was down
You were always there to comfort me
And no one else can be what you have been to me
You will always be you always will be the girl
In my life for all times

Chorus:
Mama, mama you know I love you
Oh you know I love you
Mama, mama you're the queen of my heart
Your love is like
Tears from the stars
Mama, I just want you to know
Lovin' you is like food to my soul
Yes it is (5x)

You're always down for me
Have always been around for me even when I was bad
You showed me right from my wrong
Yes you did
And you took up for me
When everyone was downin' me
You always did understand
You gave me strength to go on
There was so many times
Looking back when I was so afraid
And then you come to me
And say to me I can face anything
And no one else can do
What you have done for me
You'll always be
You will always be the girl in my life

Chorus:
Mama, mama you know I love you
Oh you know I love you
Mama, mama you're the queen of my heart
Your love is like
Tears from the stars
Mama, I just want you to know
Lovin' you is like food to my soul
Yes it is (5x)

Never gonna go a day without you
Fills me up just thinking of you
I'll never go a day without my mama

Chorus:
Mama, mama you know I love you
Oh you know I love you
Mama, mama you're the queen of my heart
Your love is like
Tears from the stars
Mama, I just want you to know
Lovin' you is like food to my soul

I LOVE YOU MUMMY..
^.^

April's SONG.. ♥

Never should've let you go
Never found myself at home
Ever since that day that you walked
Right out the door

You were like my beating heart
That I, I can't control
Even though weve grown apart
My brain cant seem to let you go

Thinking back to the old times
When you kept me up late at night
We use to mess around
Laugh and play, fuss and fight

(Pre-Chorus)
I guess its too late, Im dancing this dance alone
This chapters done, the story goes on

(Chorus)
Baby
Can't believe that you are not with me
'Cause you should be my lady
All I want is to set your heart free

But if you believe that you belong with him
Promise me, you wont let anyone hurt you
Remember, I will always be here for you
Even if it kills me to see you

In that wedding dress
Oh see you in that wedding dress
See you in that wedding dress
Oh see you in that wedding dress

(Verse 2)
Snappin out this misery
Depression this aint me
But I always turn around
180 degrees

You got control of me
And I, I cant explain
Somebody call 911 Emergency
Before I go insane

Since youve moved on
You took a piece of me give it back
So much pain in my chest
Blacking out, heart attack

(Pre-Chorus)

(Chorus)

And I see you with your man and it's hard to understand
If we belong, if I did you wrong, where we even began
We would always fuss and fight and it seems nothing was right
But I loved you girl and you were my world but you'd never trust this guy
'Cause the things I do when I'm on the stage, they say I'm a superstar
You couldn't understand all the female fans and then we grew apart
And I just don't get when you're acting like some other person
But I try my best to hold on at the times when it ain't working
And everytime that you say it's over it breaks my heart and I don't know why
'Cause you've done it a lot of times in the past but I get back up and try
You said we could work it out, how could you hurt me now
And you moved on to the next, I'm left with an imperfect smile

♥LOVE IT♥

THANK YOU BABY..♥

After 3 days u kept on asking me to update my blog^.^
♥THIS SONG IS FOR YOU♥

Thank you Baby..♥♥
I didnt mean every words that i said..=(
I Love You Soo much..SHAHIRA..♥♥
i will ALWAYS be with YOU..
XOXO

31 ways to make Shahira ♥'s me..hee..=)

1. Tell her she is beautiful
2. Hold her hand at any moment … even if its ust for a second.
3. Hug her from behind
4. Leave her voice messages to wake up to.
5. Wrestle with her
6. Don’t go hang out with you ex when she is not with you, you might not relize how badly it hurts her.
7. If youre talking to another girl, when you’re done talking, walk over and hug her and kiss her….let her know she’s yours and they aren’t.
8. Write her notes or call her just to say “hi”
9. Introduce her to your friends … as your girlfriend.
10. Play with her hair.
11. Pick her up (she loves it)
12. Get upset if another guy touches her and she doesn’t like it
13. Make her laugh
14. Let her fall asleep in your arms.
15. If she’s mad at you, kiss her.
16. If you care about her, then TELL HER
17. Every guy should give their girl 3 things: a stuffed animal (she’ll hug it every time she goes to sleep), jewelry (she’ll treasure it forever), and one of her t-shirts (she’ll most likely wear it to bed) or sweatshirts sprayed with her cologne!! and flowers or something occasionally.
18. Treat her the same around your friends as you do when you’re alone.
19. Look her in the eyes and smile.
20. Hang out with her on weekends
21. Kiss her in the rain (girls love this)
22. Kiss her just for the heck of it
23. If your listening to music, let her listen too.
24. Remember her birthday and get her something, even if its’n simple and inexpensive, it came from YOU. it means all the world to HER.
25. When she gives you a present on your birthday, Christmas, or just whenever, take it and tell her you love it, even if you don’t (it’ll make her happy.)
26. Always call her when you say you will, it may not seem like it, but it does hurt her and makes her think you don’t care so call even if you can only talk for a minute. Girls don’t necessarily have to have hour long conversations every night but its nice for us to hear your voice even for a quick hello.
27. Give her wat she wants
28. Recognize the small things … they usually mean the most.
29. Don’t hug her friends or your friends that are girls cause she’ll feel left out.
30. Hang out with her whenever you are free and u should be free to hang wit your girl friend all the time
31. If u care about her…SHOW her!

I ♥ Shahira..

11/4/2010..7.40 p.m...i cant sleep..

because ive been thkg of u..owh dear Shahira..bile la dpt jmpe nie..hari2 skype..but rase nak masuk je dlm screen tu..aku nie brangan kuat..heheh..problem da la byk nie..adui,pning..bt im glad u always der..n u always did..I love u Dear..few days nie ade je mimpi die,hmm rindu sgt la nie..eee..geramnye..(yawning) haaa ngantok da..heee..^.^

good nyte eh2 morning Shahira..
I LOVE YOU..

7th of April 2010..11:16 p.m..

2 months..wow..!! bt it doesnt fell like 2 months..dts y ive been wondering, "It has been only for 2 months"..shit,bt d feelings towards her feels like we've been together more than dt..i wish dz feeling could stay longer..as long as it can..=) lets pray for dt....................................................Amin.............♥

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BABY,I LOVE YOU MORE AND MORE EACH AND EVERYDAY.. I HOPE U CAN STAY WITH ME EVEN SLALU KNA MARAH..IM SORRY..I DIDNT MEAN IT ALWAYS..WTEVA IT IS I LOVE YOU MORE THAN I DID TO ANYONE ELSE BEFORE..

♥ SOFIAN ♥ SHAHIRA ♥

OWH SHIT..!!!

I NEED AN ANGER MANAGEMENT..!!!!!

Sian die..=(
i ♥ u

5/4/2010...12.00 a.m

Guilt,Giving up,Disappointed...these 3 words cant stop flying around in my head.. why..?? why..?? why now..?? did i do somethg wrong,until ive been punished like dz..wt am i suppose to do..i did evrythg i cn,i did everythg i hve to..should i jz live in the world of my own..?? i jz cant,cz i need sum1 to pushed me,to say u cn do dz,dun giv up,i luv u,im proud of u..evrythg..!!! y cant i succeed like others..live my life..make my family proud,every1 proud..

it has been only 2 months....n look how happy i am wif HER..even sumtimes i cant do my best towards her..my love towards u remains d same..it neva chge..im jz soo sorry wt ive done..wt ive put u through..im such an asshole..i always did..even i realise dt..im tryg my best,to be the best for u..u know how much i love you..even after wt u did to me..even evry1 keep tellg me how stupid i am,jz acceptng d way u are,n jz go on wif d relationship after im being cheated on u..dt doesnt matter,as long as im happy wif u..seriously i am..

im so sorry baby,i need sometime to put all this shit dt has been hppning to me back together again..i might be coming back this hari raya..im not sure bout dt..i noe i did promise u,ill be comg home..but n all promises are ment to be followed ok..i hope u understand..even im thousand miles away from u..believe me..im always by ur side..i did meet u up last year ryte..i still remember d smell of ur skin..until these days..='( i still remember d way u move..i remember you..

plz 4give me i jz cant stop lovg u anymore,plz 4give if i need u like i do,plz believe me evry word i say is true..So If you're feelin' lonely.. don't..cz im ryte here.. You're the only one i'd ever want..I only wanna make it good..i always love u,i mean it when i say I LOVE YOU..

I LOVE YOU SHAHIRA..♥♥

how..??

how do i get thru one nite witout u..if i had to live without u,wt kind of life would dt be..?? i need u in my arms,need u to hold..u r my world,my heart, n my soul..if u eva leave baby u would take away evrythg good in my life..n tell me now how do i live without you..?? n i want to noe how do i breathe without you..?? if u eva go,how will i ever,ever survive..HOW??

without u,thered be no sun in the sky,der would be no love in my life,there'd be no world left for me..baby i dun noe what would i do...id be lost,if i lost you.................

1st of April 2010..

wt i really hope happen on dz date is jz an April Fool..bt its not..its really happening..cn we fix a broken glass to its normal shape..?? maybe we cn,bt its really takes time..even if we fix it..some part of d glass will be missing..same goes to our heart..once we love any guys/gurls,n den they cheat on us,lie to us..our heart broke into pieces...a broken heart can be fixed,it takes times,n even if we fix it,some pieces will be missing..dt is, TRUST..its always like dt..but they deserve second chance..for me dz is call karma,i did sumthg wrong before,n i admit i deserve dz,bt nt from sum1 dt i put my full trust on it..dz is nt my first time,bt dz is my second time,n i really think i dun deserve it on d second time..

nt even 2 months weve been together,even i noe dt u luv me within dz time,to me,u r jz playing with it..u didnt appreciate it.....honestly,until today,the guilt dt i felt towards both of u,still der..even u choose me..if i didnt love u like wt i told u..i could've leave u..i have a blog all bout u,wt should i do wif it,i hve 3000++ of ur snapshots pics,wt should i do wif it..but i do LOVE u..i have d rights to give u a better life..i noe i cn do it..bt i need to put trust in our relationship..bt ive lost it..i dun even trust myself anymore,dt i cn put trust on u..what should i do now..??? ive been cryg my eyes off after wt happening on dz date..ive neva done dt..even evrytime i broke up wif sum1..d phrase "bunga bukan sekuntum,kumbang bukan seekor" its really true, bt to me u r d only flowers...

You can always put on a fake smile but most people can read through that with the look in your eyes. Mouths can hide sadness, but eyes can not...Some people are better at hiding sadness, but people who know you will know...especially ur family..yesterday i did wc wif my mum..after sometime dz it wt happen..

mummy:is der sumthg bothering you?
me:nope..wt make u say dt..??
mummy:dun lie to me..
me:seriously mum,nothg..=)
mummy:i dun noe whether u realise o not but u r hiding sumthg within dt smileys..=)
me:mmm hehe nothg serious..=(
mummy:it does look serious? u can tell me..u always did..

i didnt tell her d real story,bt i make up another story..bla..bla..bla..n she gave me an advice...bla..bla..bla..den everythgs done suddenly my eyes pouring wif tears..again..i still cant accept wts been happening to me after all dz years..y always d bad thgs happen to me..?? y i cant live wif normal life like others..='( every morning i woke up,ill keep on sayg I LOVE YOU SHAHIRA,I LOVE YOU SHAHIRA,I LOVE YOU SHAHIRA...

long distance relationship is nt easy..cz anythg cn happen,especially whn we dun trust each other..='( if only if u didnt lie to me bout ur relationship,dz thg wont happen,dz date wont be remembered,the pieces wont be missing n maybe i dun even knew u anymore..but everythgs happen 4 a reason..ill try to find d missing pieces..so dt we will complete..ive put faith on u..it never fade,it will always stay like dt..n i will love u always..

Sofian..='(

its all yesterday..

I gave you the benefit of the doubt till you showed me what you were about,ur true bloody colours came out n your words couldn't hide the sin dt uve been pretending on me cz the truth about where you've been doing all this long n cheating on me..Im done wif dz, feeling like an idiot Loving you,for all dz tym..Im jz over it I just don't love you, don't love you no more u are so yesterday neva thought you would lose my love this way now you come begging me to stay,I don't wanna hear a thing you say baby what you're saying to me is useless ders no more you and I..I couldn't get it right on yesterday so kiss our tomorrows goodbye..last time i should've just been a man about it,ur love was like my blanket dun noe know what to do without it,n now u r begging me,tellg me like im d one dt has been hurtg u..hell no BITCH..Ur promises don't mean nothing for all this while..And now you wanna reminisce,say you wanna try again..i noe it start out with a little kiss bt u end it up like dz..dt is jz cool..im sorry bt we can't even be friends..no no..!! now i never wanna see you, never wanna feel you, never wanna hear you I don't love you, dun need you, I can't stand you no more..stop doing dz..y u always wanna do dz to me,y cant u be hapy for me..for wt i have nw..FUCK all dz..please..i love wt i have now..i jz dun wanna lose it for sum1 like u..dt dun noe how to appreciate thgs..n take my love dt u can play with..when u say u love me,u love me jz on dt day..n when u feel like throwing me away..u jz do it..u dun have feeling..not a lil bit at all..i hve trillions of reason for nt givg u d 2nd chance,nt even 2nd its d 4th chance..id rather stay wif Shahira..I love her,she loves me..i wont take her 4 granted..nt anymore..plz be happy 4 me..im begging u..u r d one said.."if i cant handle u at ur worse,den i dun deserve u at ur best"..nw i undrstd wt is dt suppose to mean..im jz too stupid,didnt realize it..so lets jz be it..

Sofian

Australia..with Love..

dz is d story b4 i came to australia..ish asik speaking je..ah biala..sebok je..sbelom dtg ke australia,i was in NIUC,Nilai International University College..doing aircraft maintenance engineering..eh jap2..cmtu ke eja maintenance..or maintanence..ish pape jela..ade bunyik ok la tu..mmg dr kecik aku suka Aeroplane..aku stat suke whn i was 6 years old..mase aku igt lagi 1st flight seumur hidup g indonesia holiday..dt tyme i was waitg at the boardg gate..looking through the glass n i was amaze how cn dz big steel thg fly with on two engine dts is smaller than d fuselage..btw fuselage ialah tmpat korang duduk 2 la..x termasok wing die..dr dpan smpai blakang..tu la fuselage..jz in case x tau..hehe..

den i was wondering brape org yg nk kna bawak bde nie..?? den aku g kt my mum n i was askg 1000 question tah mase 2 btol ke x my mum nye jwpn bt i was like oookkk..until 1 tyme,my mum ckp,kalo nk bawak bde 2..blaja elokk2..n jd pilot..n then aku taye lg.."pilot 2 ape mami..??" jwpn my mum sng je..yg bwk kapal trbg 2 laa..semenjak dr 2..ive set my mind..1 day ill fly dt thg,evn wteva it takes..n this was 14 years ago..=)

until now my passion towards aircraft neva chge..even i love to watch Aircrash Investigation..bloody hell..sumtimes it looks scary..bt then mostly aircrash 99% came from human error itself..see,dts y we r usg "nobodys perfect"..we r nt perfect..if we r perfect,xdenye sume org nk study..hell no..do u all know dt to an aircraft crash is in a ratio of 1:1,000,000...every pilot knows dt i thk.. ^.^

bt 4 me i dun believe in those thgs,if kte da ditakdir kn utk mati cm2,no one cn chge dt..jz accept it..ajal n maut di tgn tuhan..seriously evrytyme i went for flight,ill jz keep on sayg to myself "wteva thgs gonna happen today,it happens for a reason..even kalo aku mati arinie,aku mati sbb aku buat ape yg aku nk slame nie..so,its worth it.." before evry single flight,ill call my mum,n sumtimes i ask her to tell my sis i Love her..call my dad,grndma..evry1..jz for the sake of 1 hour flight..even 1 minutes of flight,anythg could happn..

even ders one tyme,aku lpe nk call family,bt mlm tu da ckp da ade flight pagi,my mum ckp lpas flight call,ok,biasenye mmg aku x lpe..den afta flight aku lpe nk call,afta flight plak aku pnat den tdola kt umah..dr ptg smpai mlm..phne plak silence..aduhh..mmg 50++ la call form my mum,sis,skali ngn nenek2 pn call gak..aduh..den call la balikk my mum,bole bantai kna marah la plak..ahahha..kne bebel nape x call sume..sume risau..hehe..relaxla..kn kn..wah sayang diorang kt aku nie..heee..=)

b4 plan nk g aussie pn ade apply kt flying academy malaysia..bt den pnoh plak..mmg mase 2 mmg da heart broken,nk jd pilot x mendpt..den bace2 surat kabar my mum jmpe article bout flight training kt aussie..n i was thkg dt sounds interestg..den kitorg jz pegi seminar 2..dga2..bout their training..afta a few hours dt time i didnt make up my mind lg nk pegi ke x..until 1 fine day,ttbe my mum taye "nk pegi ke aussie..???" i was like blurr giler.. den taye la balikk "bercuti ke..? sape xnk..??" (while smiling) hee.. den die ckp for ur future la..n i taye..u mean u nk anta i g training kt sane..n i was so happy..bt at d same time,ade terpikir gak,dts gonna be a lot of money involve..=( den ngadu kt my sis,i cant do this to mum..australia is nt malaysia,their iving expenses is 3x more than malaysia..n shes like,if she cant afford die xkn offer kn...........

n my mum ask me to make up my mind whether u gonna 4get bout pilotg,n find another course or jz go to australia..n make ur dream come true..it takes me almost two weeks to make up my mind..n 1 day im thkg until when i hve to depending on my family..one day ive 2 leave them, n live my life,make my own decision,raise a family,once i hve a family i have a job,n d job is puttg food on the table for my family..i ve to do dt witout them..i have to be independent..n here i am..im on my own..even ive been missg the like hell..shit,i wish i could be der nw..lg2 ade plak yg aku syg skrg nie..owh dear SHAHIRA..<3

a month before going,evry single fren nk jmpe..sume ckp nnti rindu2..ok fine,smpai nk g bli beg pn rmai gile ikut..ahahha..lantak korg la..nk sgt jmpe kn..ikut aku shoppg bli beg ahahah..bt it was fun..dt time plak pavilion ade..so merayap g sane mkn TGI fridays,tgk movie..waa beznye..nk buat lg..haih bile la bole lg nie..even 1 day b4 pegi pn ade yg dtg umah..beznye ade kwn cmnie..=)

15 nov 2008..
den ptg sblum departure my mum msak my favourite food..tp cm first time x abis mknn 2 sbb sedeh..den i went up bilik nk bersiap,mandi sume suddenly air mata jantan klua,haha..d only thg i dun undrstd is,whether its a tears of joy,or the tears of sadness..cz both feeling were der..bt i have 2 cover up dt thg..cz xnk my mum,my sis,especially grndma stat nanges gak..so bkunci la dlm bilik until sume looks fine..den before btolak..my mu ask me,are u sure u wanna go..i dun mind if u chge ur mind at this very last moment..i said "im sure i cn do dz..i wont let u down,i will make all of u proud..dts my promise..den mulelaa drama melayu,whn my grandma stat nanges..peluk x nk lpas..baru kt umah blom kt airport lg nie..hihi..8.00 p.m,smpai airport,d best part is x sgke sume org dtg..my auntie,my czin..rmai gile..igtkn family je..bt den sume ade..ok cool..tersentuh gak la..hehe..

every minutes i keep on looking at my watch..cz at dt time every minutes is precious..cz i thk whether its d last moment im gona see them again or maybe i have the chance to see them again..so its all depends..so we all went to international departure..dt was d last time im with my family...salam2 mintak maaf,doakn saye,janji2..bt x nanges punn..yg nanges my grndma je..my mum pun x nanges..my sis die tahan i noe..cz im her only brother,kitorg gelak same2,sharing story,kuar sesame den one day im gone..die balikk umah pn xde sape nk layann die..dts kinda sedeh gak..2 yg susah adik bradik dua je..bt bez gak bile kite yg adek..hehe..before i go punn,bf my sis ade call ckp kakak slalu nanges sbb yan nk pegi..yan pjuk la die eh...until kwn die kt brunei pn call i,sbb i mmg rapat ngn kak liana nie..ckp kakak ngadu kt die sedeh adik die nk pegi jauh da xde sape die nk layan..hehe..i noe sis,yan pn sedeh gak,xnk tnjuk je sbb nnti kakak lg sedeh..eee rindunyee..da lme x jmpe kak liana..dulu mase die slalu dtg umah,kalo kuar ngn kak liana,my sis,n bf kakak,sklalu i la jd bf kak liana ahahah..bez2..

9.00 p.m gate C3..flight to Australia..
da nk pegi punn still on the phone ngn family..nenek,kakak,papa..sedehnye..tp nk wt cmne..nk mnuntut ilmu..10.40 da berlepas..smpai aussie kol 9 pagi aussie..kt malaysia 6.00 pg mase tuh..flying3 unti 2nd of March ive got my first solo..on my bbirthday..cool weh..ssah tau aku bajet cmtu..hehe.......................................................

15 dec 2009
until one year baru balikk malaysia balikk..sbb summer break..mase nk balikk 2 bez gilee..sthun x jmpe family kn kn..haha..raye punn x dpt balikk..hihi..time nie la sume nk jmpe lg..cuti 3 minggu lbih je..nk jmpe rmai..yg penting Shahira dpt jmpe..haha..1st date da jmpe my mum,n my sis..coll la wei..hehe..itupn kalo x pakse x nk ikut..hehe..pdn muke die kna pakse..senyap je dlm keta..haha klaka..siap tp worth it kn seharian ngn sayang..?? <3 da shoppg2..nk balikk da,mstila kna anta die balikk kn..pastu cm nk mkn nasik lmak la plak kn..die bawak g malis..layaaannn..hehe..dt tyme sbnrnye,aku da x rase mcm kwn mcm da cple..hehe..den ade one day aku dpt tau die da bpunye..ilang la hajat 2..

10th Jan 2010..
balikk aussie,even tau die still in relationshp,bt kitorg still ctact..skype,ym,fb,myspace..den 21 days b4 my 20th birthday,aku cabar die make me fall in love wif her..actually within dt duration i jz nk dga die ckp I LOVE YOU..ade die ckp,bt i want it in a proper way..afta 2 days she did convince me dt die btol2 sayang aku..so i jz giv her a chance..n un til now..we r still together,n the love grew stronger n stronger..n raya thun nie aku nak balikk gak..nk jmpe die..x kesah,nk balikk gak..nk raye malaysia..cnie boring..wt eva it is i will make it happen..

Australia has bring me a lot of happiness,sadness,bring me love dt i have neva expected..=) n im glad i found u Shahira..♥

why..??

this is wt i feel ryte nw..GIVING UP..everything..bt dz is wt i want,dz is wt i dreamed of..why should i giv up..?? life is unfair..sometimes..everytime we pray 4 sumthg,nt everythg we get,until we earn it..we work for it..den we get it..dts wt i need 2 do nw..flying an aircraft is nt driving a car..haha..same goes to love,loving sum1 is nt easy..dts bloody responsibility..i love wt i have now,loving mum,dad,grandma,sister, n Shahira love..

being the only son n the only brother in the family is nt easy..cz one day im responsible for everythg,my own wife to take care to,mom,dad,sister,grandma..everyone..bknnye nk merungut..bt dts wt life is..we cant run away from responsibility..

penah je dlu da pikir nk balik msia..im done..give up..bt dgn nasihat my mum,sis,frens..im still goin strong,until now still..im glad..ive neva stop prayg..cz dts d only way..

bt dr dlu lg..sume bde dt da plan..alwayz ade prob..until now..i dun noe why..i jz go through to it.. bt thank god,im still cn go through it..eventhough it make me feels like giving up..hmmm,thanks to Shahira dt still nt gettg tired of me..even my Attitude like shit..shes d kind dt girl,i wanna spend my life together..Your world is my world,n my fight is ur fight..my breath is ur breath n your heart is mine..ur my one love,my one heart n my life for sure..ill be ur one guy,ull be my number one girl,alwayz makg time for you..

kadang2 tulis blog ill end up citer psal Shahira..haha..mestinya..Sayang sgt kott..ape kott2..mmg syg sgt punn..hihi..LOVE,LOVE,LOVE...bile la dpt jmpe die nie..dlu jmpe pn x puas..=) nk balikk raye thun nie..thun lpas x dpt salam mami punn,kakak,papa,nenek,unc mas..haih..dosa thun lpas x berampun punn..hahah..eh thun lpas baeklaa..x jahat punn..hihi..

cinta yg sempurna..=)

even i did sumthg wrong,u still bare wif me,neva get tired of me,neva hates me,neva giv up wif me..NEVER..!! dts d best word..dts wt i like bout u..i feel lucky i found you,even d 1st tyme i didnt put faith on u..bt now i did..i trusted u..ALWAYZ..sorry 4 evrythg wt ive done to u..i didnt mean it,no ones is perfect..im tryg my best to get to noe u..im not gonna be surprised if one day we gonna spend our life together,cz every single day i pray 4 dt..eventhough we keep on fightg,i thk dts d only thg dt makes our ♥ grew stronger..I ♥ u wif all my heart..

Another day without your smile
Another day just passes by
But now i know how much it means
For you to stay right here with me
The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurts so bad i can't take it any longer

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you, sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

A thousand miles between us now
It causes me to wonder how
Our love tonight remains so strong
It makes our risk right all along
The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurt so bad i can't take it any longer

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you, sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

things can come and go
i know but baby believe
somethings burning strong between us
makes it clear to me

I ♥ you SHAHIRA..

TQ AGAIN..

step in my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me I'll be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what it'd be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each other's mind
Just to see what we find
Look at shit through each other's eyes

screw everything..

this is what i feel right now..
screw FACEBOOK..
screw YAHOO MESSENGER..
screw SKYPE..

I HATE ALL OF THIS RIGHT NOW..

FUCK..!!

Prank..haha

[3:13:50 PM] shahira: ok
[3:15:17 PM] shahira: did u love me?
[3:15:37 PM] sofian: do u love me..??
[3:15:43 PM] shahira: yes i do
[3:15:56 PM] sofian: ok..
[3:16:04 PM] shahira: how bout u?
[3:16:10 PM] sofian: do u..?/
[3:16:20 PM] shahira: im asking
[3:16:26 PM] sofian: did u/.??
[3:16:33 PM] shahira: did u waht?
[3:16:37 PM] shahira: ]*what
[3:16:46 PM] sofian: did u ask me
[3:17:02 PM] shahira: yes im asking
[3:17:29 PM] sofian: wt did u ask..?
[3:17:35 PM] shahira: do u love me?
[3:17:44 PM] sofian: really..??
[3:17:53 PM] shahira: main2 lah u
[3:17:58 PM] shahira: da xsyg lah tu
[3:17:59 PM] sofian: no
[3:18:09 PM] shahira: i tnya xjwb
[3:18:14 PM] sofian: x
[3:18:21 PM] shahira: xsyg?
[3:18:23 PM] sofian: x
[3:18:34 PM] shahira: xsyg shshira
[3:18:35 PM] shahira: ?
[3:18:39 PM] sofian: x
[3:18:50 PM] shahira: seriusly?
[3:18:54 PM] sofian: yup
[3:19:08 PM] sofian: da x syg da
[3:19:24 PM] shahira: syg sapa?
[3:19:32 PM] sofian: xde sape..
[3:19:41 PM] shahira: shahira abdullah pun?
[3:19:45 PM] sofian: yup
[3:19:51 PM] shahira: da xnk dia?
[3:19:56 PM] sofian: xnk
[3:20:19 PM] shahira: ok~u xmain2 kan.tnya bnyk kali pun sama je jwbpn..
[3:20:35 PM] sofian: mmg x main2 pn..
[3:20:45 PM] shahira: ok..
[3:21:01 PM] shahira: tgok da xnk i
[3:21:13 PM] shahira: :'(
[3:21:24 PM] sofian: tgk muke
[3:21:35 PM] sofian: mmg pn..
[3:21:43 PM] sofian: u kn ade shahmi
[3:21:54 PM] shahira: dlu
[3:21:58 PM] shahira: bkn now
[3:22:19 PM] sofian: forever u will
[3:22:28 PM] shahira: u xnk i?
[3:22:46 PM] sofian: muaz ade..
[3:22:53 PM] shahira: muaz kwn baik i
[3:23:02 PM] shahira: xkn jd part of mylife
[3:23:09 PM] sofian: i noe..die kn suke kt u..
[3:23:15 PM] shahira: u xsuka i?
[3:23:33 PM] sofian: nt anymore
[3:24:22 PM] shahira: k

ahahahh..kna tgk muke die..=) bape kali aku gelak sbnrnnye die je yg x prasan..aduss..
klaka klaka..

♥

A thousand miles between us now
It causes me to wonder how
Our love tonight remains so strong
It makes our risk right all along
The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurt so bad i can't take it any longer..